“i have a handphone, but i hate technology because it ruins the nature” zahli, idare march 2012.
Idare mar 2012 is my last camp leading as a single leader, for a school event. I will never be able to connect with a group on a personal scale any more. Its sad really. but for what i experienced, its all worth it.
My idare group this year is BARNEY! Comprising of only the strongest of strong. The coolest of cool people. Rachel, clarissa, winnie, si han, pearlyn, edwin, dion, sui hang, jonathan, ernest. Lastly, lead by me, TINY :D as a group, we overcame obstacles, helped each other in times of need, encouraged each other when it was hard to carry on. We drank waterfall water, drank river water that looked like teh ping, ate a paintball, WON MOST OF THE PAINTBALL GAMES! Built a damn lousy catapult lol, had a rocky/muddy 4wd trip where bruises were inevitable. On the last day of idare, i broke down inside. I took a slow walk around the campsite in the chilly morning. Breathing in what is left of pahang air. I might not have a chance to go back. That feeling sucked.
From a bad day, my campers made it all good and enjoyable for me. They took breakfast for me. Gave me letters folded into heart shapes. (this point i really almost cry but i tahan lol) then at time square, they bought this really big barney and presented it to me. (i also really almost keraaaiii. But i tank. Cannot cry infront of them) stepping into ngee ann brought me back to reality. I kinda wish time would have stopped when we were in idare. I gave my final debrief. I couldn’t hold it in any longer, so i just cried. It was a sad but happy day. I was glad i managed to forge such bonds within a group, but sad that the camp ended. ): but it won’t end here. The end of the road is always the beginning of a new journey. ;D
Not forgetting my lovely SSF’s and fellow SF’s! We spent so much time painting the banner, staying at the loft for fun and go through so much shit just to make the camp a success. 4 hours of sleep during camp is tiring. But i’d do that just to spend everyday with you guys. (: i love you guys! Touch my heart like molesting it. ^^
i hope all of you read this and see how much you all mean to me. (: love you guys!
Signing off,
DINY.
